无奈

即使自己多坚强，也总会有自己最脆弱的一面，渴望你的呵护，你的拥抱。。。而这个你，到底在何方，而你我，又何时才可遇见？

False hope appears when everyone says that you can make it, yet the fact is the other way round...

Happy Dream, Disappointing Fact

I was with my mum, eating my favorite Hokkien Mee in Taman Sejati,
I was with my friends, my ex-colleagues, in YCT jewelry shop at Amanjaya Mall,
I was with my ex-employer, who was in delight to see me, and he had asked me to arrange a time for a dinner together,
I was with my very best friends, eating together,
I was at home, relaxing on the sofa, watching whole day my favorite TVB series,
I was sitting on the small yet familiar dining table, in my old place where my mum is on my left, dad on the right, and my bro opposite me, we were eating and chatting and laughing,
I was laying lazily on the big bed in my warm and cozy room, the bed sheet was my favorite one, beige with tiny purple flowers with lace lining, the big wood wardrobe on my right, my study table just opposite me, and the large and clear mirror above my dressing table which is on the right of my study table,
I was daydreaming with my eyes gazing out the window at the garden, enjoying looking at the greenish and lively grass, the blueish and whitish sky above the roof, the yellowish and golden soil land behind the fence, everything was so warm, and normal...
I was worried in my heart that everything would disappear soon, after returning to France,
I was even thinking of never to return to that country anymore, though it is pretty, but still unfamiliar,

Yet, the noise of my neighbour skyping so loudly that I opened my eyes, and I was still here, curling in my small single bed, beige colour walls around this small room,
I realised that there was nothing for me to worry about, as all those had never exist, they were merely in my dream, yeah, merely a dream...

And my tears rolled down my cheeks...

遥远的梦

每个人都拥有梦想，有的已经实现了自己的梦想，有的拼搏了几个世纪都无法实现自己的愿望，到底我那小小却遥远的愿望，我何时才能实现到呢？

今晚，恭喜你们实现了自己的梦想，也希望我未来有一天也可以像你们如此风光，达到自己自小的愿望。

迷茫的时候。。。

偶尔看回以前的照片，有的是好多甜苦的回忆。回想起当时侯的点点滴滴，而如今身在异地的我真的感觉到了时间的流逝是多么的残忍。法国，虽然真是人人所说的那么美丽，但景色优美，却对我而言十分的陌生，因为我对这国家有的是零回忆。

前方的路有多么难走，即使多孤独，自己还是得咬紧牙关坚持下去，可有时候还是会想透透气，想停止那一对正一直往前跑的双脚，会过头望一望以前的点滴。有时候还是会问问自己当初是否真的做了对的选择，还是当初站在十字路口的当儿，迷茫的我只是草率的做了向前走的决定。我的梦想到底是什么，原来我一直都搞不清。。。

The Unknown Box Of Chocolate

I wonder how time flies,

Things just happen too fast,

That in just a blink of eyes, 

The memories that I had was just my past.

A year back, 

He was there, the person that I couldn't live without,

A year after,

He is nowhere, the person that I actually can live without.

A year back, 

They were there, whom I think I could live without,

A year after,

They are far after, whom I actually couldn't live without.

A year back,

I had nearly everything done for me,

A year after,

I have everything waiting to be done by me.

A year back, 

A year after,

Never think that it's just a year difference,

You'll never know what are going to lead you in the future.

Because life is like a box of chocolate,

You'll never know what you're gonna get.

:)

-CRYSTAL-

她给他的一封信…

今天看见了一位好友哭泣，她躺在我怀里不断地哭，无论我怎么劝，怎么开导她，她仍然是哭得那么的凄凉，哭得连我自己都感到鼻子酸酸的…我可以感受到她的痛，也看得出她是十分爱他，可那只是错爱，她错爱了他，那个无心无肺的他…大家都说他们好配，男的也很疼她，事实上男的心里有的却是另一个她，男的把我这位好友当什么了，我好想责问他，可却没这个胆子…男人啊，你们总是喜欢玩玩的，可你们懂吗，你们这种态度很有可能摧毁一个无辜女生的一生及前途…你爱就说爱，不爱就说不爱，为什么总要把事情搞到那么复杂…请在你搞清楚你爱的是谁以后才开始展开追求，你们总是喜欢把女人当作替代品，可请你知道这世界是会有报应的，至少我深信是有的…他欠她一世的对不起，可对不起根本起不了作用，我反而愿背叛过女生的他们遭到同样的遭遇，别说我残忍，因为在爱情里，女生不一定是弱者，她一定会比他过得更好，更幸福！