What a Poem I'd Create...:)

Exam...this was the very first thing that struck on me right after my choir life.

I hope I wasn't too late to start study, yet thinking of there was so many things that should be covered in merely three weeks time, I started to shake with fright. Argh, there wasn't much time left!

Time, 

if only I can multiply you by many many times, 

I would do so without hesitation. 

However, 

Reality is always cruel to us, right?

24 hours per day is so little for me,

not only me, I think...

but you said I'd been wasting loads of time doing things that are futile...

Facebook?

That's not useless,

All of us needs rest and fun...

Messaging?

Well, I have to message, if not I would miss him profusely

And that would make matters worse!

Day dreaming?

Oh, you caught me!

I was speechless then...Haha!

Self photographing?

Err...that's one kind of entertainment,

And to remind myself how I look:)

...

Now, 

I know you are speechless with all my reasonable reasons...

So, 

My dear time,

My beloved time,

My precious time,

Would you kindly multiply yourself?

48 hours will do...

And,

Your answer is...

NO!!!

...

So, I hate you!

My Faith In Choir...

Wow! It's have been a long time since I last update my blog...:)

The very first thing I would like to share around-CHOIR...

Everyone was anxious...everyone was panic...everyone wants to win...
Yeah, including me...We'd spent plenty of our precious time, we'd sacrificed much, we'd put in so much feelings and effort into it, maybe not everyone, but majority...

The outcome was we failed...We thought we were good, we thought we stand the opportunity to win them, yet the final result was so disappointing. I remembered that particular moment, when the spokesperson announced the result, Che Tom yelled out with joy, feeling on top of the world that they gained third, and our holding hands became tighter. Suddenly, reality struck into me, and I began to feel hopeless...yeah, we get second...

Getting second prize was good enough, well, maybe for the other school, but definitely not for me, not for us, not for Ibrahim! We'd been the defeated one since ages ago, why? Hmm...

Beyond The Point of No Return...it was one of the song we sang in our choir...and it sounds absolutely true, we can't turn back to our pasts. What we've done was done...Instead of keep on looking back, we should look forward, right?

I Hate Myself !

Great! I hate you, Crystal!!!!!!!

Hate you hate you hate you!
What's for being so choosy?
What's for growing such huge enthusiasm into that movie?
What's wrong with CarsII?

Stupid me!
Letting him become so furious because of one movie!
Why? Why cares about which movie we are going to watch?

When I finally compromise he was already so angry, and had already gave up!
Serves you right, CRYSTAL!!!

Guilt Crept In Me...Sorry My Friend

Sorry, I have to confess to my friend, Joey. I am really so sorry that I came late to school today, causing you so much trouble...I hope you can forgive me as my mum's alarm clock ran out of battery today, and we ended up waking at 6.42am. I know its my fault and my responsibility, I am really really sorry. It was truly me to be blamed. However, I hope you could forgive me and still accept me as one of your chums. The hurt and guilt was incredibly extreme when the idea that what I've made struck into me.  Hmm, maybe I was sensitive (which I really hope I was), can you please don't left me out in everything you all are doing? I know this is my fault, but everyone owns a second chance, right? As just now I saw u and Ze Ying discussing with teacher, I can feel that there's something on and you all are keeping it out from me. Please, tell me if I am just too sensitive. :'(

11.11.2010

11th November 2010, this particular day changed my life. Although it was distance ago, time doesn't manage to sweep away those memory.

It was hard to describe that feeling, not that I have forgotten it, it was just those who experienced it will know. Haha, I remembered clearly that I phoned my best friend, ZeYing on that day, after he asked me. ZeYing is a good friend, I must say, as she gave me advice and provided me some details about this guy (which I don't know how she managed to get them.) After all, I ignored them and so, my life changed...

Frankly, I wasn't sure about my feelings during that time. I was pretty sure there wasn't any love between us, but what made me accepted him? Still, it does not matter now as I am sure I am pretty in love with this guy.

However, thing's changed which I did not realised they would. Because of love, I become unaware of how time flies. Besides sleeping, bathing, eating and schooling, basically, my hand will be holding my handphone, typing messages and waiting for his reply. Argh, I can't resist to control myself though I had tried myself not to. Is it normal?

As love comes, friendship goes. Yes, I can feel it and I know that;s my fault as now I spend most of my time with him, always neglecting all of my good friends. Is it normal?

Haiz... Maybe that's what life is. You can't lead a perfect one, right?

There's a sense of guilt now, for typing out this post. But, no matter how, there's no turning back, because I don't want to. Till now, I never regret for the decision I've made 9 month ago. 11.11.10, the date I shall remember forever...(If there really is forever)  :-)