很想问自己，那原有的斗志力都不见去哪了？
大概就在一年前的这个时候吧，决定了到这间在法国还算是有名气的大学，妈妈再三叮咛我别挑选一条太难走的路，毕竟在现今的社会里，要拥有一份好职业或个好前途已经不再是凭一张大学文凭就可达到的。
明明自己并不想成为工程师的，但或许是好胜心作怪吧，自己还是选择了这条路。刚开始的那几个考试自己还算是考得不错，所以便对自己建立了信心，认为只要自己努力，有付出一定会有所收获。
事与愿违，第一张数学竟拿了4.5分，这是有史以来对我最大的打击吧，满怀信心的我简直跌入谷底，但收拾心情后自己还是坚信有努力就会有结果的。后来，成绩有起有落，我并不算是最好的，但却也不是最差的，可是，我累了。
我记不起已有多少个夜晚我脑子里全是课业上的问题导致我无法入眠，更不用去数我因为压力而哭了多少回。本以为这个假期里我可以好好休息，充电了再继续努力，但又一个成绩使我已经无力地奋斗下去了。
现在的我，好累。昨晚睡觉到一半突然因为想到要开学了而惊醒，然后发现自己心跳跳得好快，然后就失眠了。
也许自己走到这里，是时候停止逞强，我只想活得快乐。
是的，当工程师并不是我要的，那我何苦折腾自己地去走一条艰难的路，不如换上一条较简单的吧！
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Trip to Turkey
After dreading impatiently for such a long period, finally here comes my two weeks holidays, and yes, here comes the moment which I could finally meet them, my long-time-no-see buddies. The moment they appeared in front of my sleepy eyes in the airport, I was really excited and relieved. She is still as caring as ever, and he is still him, very cheerful and colourful haha.
I don't really care the places we'd visited, what I appreciate the most is the precious time I spent with them. Walking with them was fun, looking at that super tall guy being so lovey-dovey with my best friend was funny, chatting with them made me laugh so much that I can't remember when was the last time I laughed so much. I enjoyed listening to his singing, snatching blanket with her, and I enjoyed every jokes that we shared.
Also, our life experience on the hot air balloon ride was indeed a plus thing to be remembered forever. Not to forget our video shooting on our last day, too haha.
And now, our trip had came to an end. As I turned my back again to watch them leaving, my tears finally rolled down. There were lots of passers-by who passed by me as I sat there in front of the boarding gate, yet I felt so lonely, and I realized that they had really enlightened me during these few days. I guess that's the power of friendship.
Now, I am on my flight towards Toulouse, and I know that our distance between us is increasing every second, yet I hope that our friendship bond would be as strong as ever, regardless the distance between us.
Take care my friends.
Till our next meeting.
PS : It would be merrier if the other two cppiens were there. :)
I don't really care the places we'd visited, what I appreciate the most is the precious time I spent with them. Walking with them was fun, looking at that super tall guy being so lovey-dovey with my best friend was funny, chatting with them made me laugh so much that I can't remember when was the last time I laughed so much. I enjoyed listening to his singing, snatching blanket with her, and I enjoyed every jokes that we shared.
Also, our life experience on the hot air balloon ride was indeed a plus thing to be remembered forever. Not to forget our video shooting on our last day, too haha.
And now, our trip had came to an end. As I turned my back again to watch them leaving, my tears finally rolled down. There were lots of passers-by who passed by me as I sat there in front of the boarding gate, yet I felt so lonely, and I realized that they had really enlightened me during these few days. I guess that's the power of friendship.
Now, I am on my flight towards Toulouse, and I know that our distance between us is increasing every second, yet I hope that our friendship bond would be as strong as ever, regardless the distance between us.
Take care my friends.
Till our next meeting.
PS : It would be merrier if the other two cppiens were there. :)
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