You & I

I knew myself that I am a moody person, that I can never control my temper as well as my words. Yet after some time when I had calmed down, this sense of guiltiness would just creep into my heart.  By then, I knew I have something to explain yet I swallowed them, as I was afraid that everything might turn even worse than before.I apologized if I ever had done something that hurts you. 

I just hope that you would know, that I actually cherish every little moment being with you, as I treasure our friendships between us. And, I hope that nothing will change after every small row or big argument between you and I. I miss you my friend... 

:'(

Time flies,

From that day that you all arrived,

Everything just passed so rapidly,

As if there are only 12 hours in a day.

I was hoping that my holiday would't arrive forever, 

Because that means that you all are going to return soon,

I am afraid, as I don't want to return to the life before you arrived,

I don't want to return to normal.

And so it arrived, so fast,

Without me knowing, 

My holiday life was even faster, especially when you all are around me,

In the train, I was actually crying in my hearts while you both are sleeping.

Looking back to our pictures,

I realised that the three of us had so little pictures together,

Now, I am regretting,

Yet, useless.

And so, our Switzerland trip has ended,

Again, so fast,

We went shopping together, 

We drove to Tours together,

You said that you want to eat that ice cream that we had in Tours,

But the whole centre ville was so empty, 

Shops were closed, people were staying at home,

And I realised it's Sunday,

Bloody Sunday！

I have no more chance to let you all taste the ice cream anymore,

Sorry, 

This is the other regret that I have now,

That night, I asked you all to don't sleep, 

But at last I saw that you both were really tired,

So you all slept, and still, I refused to sleep.

The very next morning,

I watched you both packing up,

Brushing teeth, eating breakfast, 

And I knew everything has ended,

The night before I promised myself to take a picture with you all before you all left, 

Yet the stupid me has forgotten.

The moment when I heard the starting of the car engine from my balcony broke my tears,

The car passed by my balcony, and I saw you crying too,

You waved to me and asked me to go inside, scared that I would catch a cold,

I really wanted to tell you that I don't want to be here anymore.

And now, its the 3rd day after you all left,

I am still feeling so lost, so lonely, and so empty,

I don't feel like doing anything,

I can just temporarily forget all this feeling y immersing myself into the dramas,

I felt myself completely useless...

I am crying,

At this moment, I really feel like giving up everything just to see you all again,

But, can I?

I miss you...