玫瑰

生命很短暂，唯有将花瓣哄成干花才可保存，即便如此，颜色也不如当日的红艳。

谢谢

今天八点左右被电话的铃声吵醒了，一看，哇怎么会有那么多人找我了。 原来法国发生枪击与爆炸案，大家都担心我了，就连一直以来与我没什么联系的中小学朋友们，工作认识的，甚至是唱歌老师都跑过来慰问我的安危，真觉得有点受宠若惊。一一回复的当儿感到非常感激与感动，谢谢你们了 :)

秋天

今天在散步时才惊觉原来离家只有三分钟的路程就有一个非常美丽的公园，

奇怪的是这公园我每天上课的路上都会经过，可平时忙碌的日子里却一直忽略了身边的事物与景色。。。

变

总觉得他变了，变得怎么样我却说不出来，我们距离近了，感觉却更遥远了，他变了，还是我变了，随便吧，人与人之间一直都存在着会变的可能性，能走多远就得看能否接受与适应那其中的变化罢了。

那些年

昨天与友人相约去了中学义卖会，一大清早醒来时本想放飞机的，因为赖床吧，但幸好还是去了。
我遇到了好多好多熟悉的脸孔，时间匆匆，本以为大家都会变了，但大家还是那三年前的大家，除了有些人发福了瘦了高了之外，性格还是一样。
当我从远处望见了他那熟悉的背影，一霎那我慌了似的躲在朋友身后，假装没看见。他肥了少许，哈哈。
原来不只是我躲他，他看见我时也刻意地避开了我，我们没有任何对视，只是从远处偷看对方。
然后我知道其中一方应该要踏出第一步，所以当朋友拉着我去向他打个招呼时我并不反抗，哈咯，我望着他说，他也尴尬地回了嗨。然后我们便插肩而过了。
就这样，我和他就只说了嗨，哈咯，但却让我的思绪一整天都停不下来。
不是想念他，只是想要与他再做回好友，毕竟我们俩曾是彼此心中最了解最在乎的人，但这次看来，分手后依然想做回朋友，还是得慢慢来吧。
我无法形容与他相遇的心情，除了好笑也好气之外，还有一种奇妙的感觉吧，不是爱，不是恨，或许是好奇，或许是亲切感，我不知道...

与初恋相遇，原来就是这么一回事 :)

就是喜欢静静的躺在那，一天三餐都有人替自己烦着的感觉
感激:)

考试

'在法国读书，每个星期都在考试，一个星期至少考一两张'

这是我还未到法国时学长们都说的，以前总以为他们都是夸大来说，心想 : 哪有那么多科目好考哦？

当初在布鲁瓦的时候情况还好，算是轻轻松松地过了。可如今，一让自己轻松下来便追不上那沉重的课业了。一个星期考一张算好，两张是普通，三张以上才真正算繁忙。

很讨厌考试，最讨厌考试了，但又无可奈何。这星期将要考的我完全没把握，看来又是两张不及格了吧，唉！

路

很想问自己，那原有的斗志力都不见去哪了？
大概就在一年前的这个时候吧，决定了到这间在法国还算是有名气的大学，妈妈再三叮咛我别挑选一条太难走的路，毕竟在现今的社会里，要拥有一份好职业或个好前途已经不再是凭一张大学文凭就可达到的。

明明自己并不想成为工程师的，但或许是好胜心作怪吧，自己还是选择了这条路。刚开始的那几个考试自己还算是考得不错，所以便对自己建立了信心，认为只要自己努力，有付出一定会有所收获。

事与愿违，第一张数学竟拿了4.5分，这是有史以来对我最大的打击吧，满怀信心的我简直跌入谷底，但收拾心情后自己还是坚信有努力就会有结果的。后来，成绩有起有落，我并不算是最好的，但却也不是最差的，可是，我累了。

我记不起已有多少个夜晚我脑子里全是课业上的问题导致我无法入眠，更不用去数我因为压力而哭了多少回。本以为这个假期里我可以好好休息，充电了再继续努力，但又一个成绩使我已经无力地奋斗下去了。

现在的我，好累。昨晚睡觉到一半突然因为想到要开学了而惊醒，然后发现自己心跳跳得好快，然后就失眠了。

也许自己走到这里，是时候停止逞强，我只想活得快乐。

是的，当工程师并不是我要的，那我何苦折腾自己地去走一条艰难的路，不如换上一条较简单的吧！

Trip to Turkey

After dreading impatiently for such a long period, finally here comes my two weeks holidays, and yes, here comes the moment which I could finally meet them, my long-time-no-see buddies. The moment they appeared in front of my sleepy eyes in the airport, I was really excited and relieved. She is still as caring as ever, and he is still him, very cheerful and colourful haha.

I don't really care the places we'd visited, what I appreciate the most is the precious time I  spent with them. Walking with them was fun, looking at that super tall guy being so lovey-dovey with my best friend was funny, chatting with them made me laugh so much that I can't remember when was the last time I laughed so much. I enjoyed listening to his singing, snatching blanket with her,  and I enjoyed every jokes that we shared.

Also, our life experience on the hot air balloon ride was indeed a plus thing to be remembered forever. Not to forget our video shooting on our last day, too haha.

And now, our trip had came to an end. As I turned my back again to watch them leaving, my tears finally rolled down. There were lots of passers-by who passed by me as I sat there in front of the boarding gate, yet I felt so lonely, and I realized that they had really enlightened me during these few days. I guess that's the power of friendship.

Now, I am on my flight towards Toulouse, and I know that our distance between us is increasing every second, yet I hope that our friendship bond  would be  as strong as ever, regardless the distance between us.

Take care my friends.
Till our next meeting.

PS : It would be merrier if the other two cppiens were there. :)

No choice = Life

I still remember that day, when all of us were discussing if we should or not to go back to Malaysia during this year's Chinese New Year. And so, the decision was made, and ta-da, 600+€ flew away...

From that day onwards, I was anticipating for 14th February to arrive. Though in between my parents were here in France to visit me, yet the non-stop examinations that I had made me miss lots of precious moments with them, and I sent them off regretfully...

So, my life carried on with more examinations, more challenges, more hardcore, and I was so busy that I couldn't spend more time skyping with them, and each time I said goodbye to them in Skype, I sensed the regrets and sadness in the eyes of my parents...

And finally, it was the week... I still have my physics practical writing and hands-on test, but that week, I was so excited. Shopping for groceries was always the last thing that I would like to do, but for the sake of my family, I didn't mind spending much money and carrying about 7kg of stuffs from Carrefour to my residence.

And yes, that day arrived. More than 20 hours of traveling time wasn't at all a problem for me, as I know I will be in the arms of my dad, my mum and my brother very soon. And there they were, standing impatiently at the arrival hall of Penang International Airport. 

Home sweet home. That feeling was indescribable. I was welcomed home by a well-cleaned bedroom, 7 new dresses for the festival, plenty of home cooked food and cookies. Everything was so familiar, my room, my bed, the linens, everything... 

And of course, I tried my best to stay as much time as possible to be with my family, from shopping, eating till watching movies together, and not to forget our traditional 'mum&daughter's activity'...

Yet, today, at this moment, I am in my cosy bed, writing this, too afraid to sleep as sleeping is a waste of time now... Time flies, too fast that I just have 1 more day to be with my beloved family, and after that life just has to remain as before, which means to live without the accompaniment of my family,to live alone in my small residence, to cook and to settle things myself etc. Maybe I am the kind of person who is too dependant, well, definitely is, as my tears are rolling down now...

I thank God for everything. I know very well that I am lucky enough to have the chance to come back home and celebrate Chinese New Year with my family. May God blesses them with health, safety and happiness. 

Time flies... 

Now, I realise...